A Letter (2017)

Mom Papa Kira Aidan Kalin Kanon & Delilah,

Firstly, thank you for all you do for me. It means more than I can express in words so I won’t try, but please know that you do everything for me and everything you do means more than the world to me.

Thank you for flying me down here, for extending my time with you, for caring for me, and for bearing with me despite all my problems that I brought into your home. It breaks my heart that I had to spend a lot of my time recovering and I regret that I hurt you and wasted the short, precious amount of time that I get to have with the most beautiful, perfect family in the world.

I am so privledged to be a part of this crazy clan of creators, doers, lovers, fighters,  intellectuals, comedians, travelers, dare devils, dancers, singers, laughers, parents, brothers and sisters. I only wish I could be half of the person you people are, and I am so, so, so proud to call all of you my family.

Please know that I appreciate again, more than words can adequately express, the time, effort, energy, and money that you spend betting on me. I know the chances of what I express that I’m going to become are more slim than winning the lottery- and it’s a lot to bet on when so much hinges on it. However, I can promise you with more confidence and surety than I can promise you anything else in this world, that your bet is not in vain and I will forever honor you and credit you with in part nourishing, supporting, encouraging, and in part creating what I know I am going to become. Your faith in me now will be repaid more than tenfold. I’m going to bring you the world.

I love you more than anyone or anything, and it is very hard for me to be apart from you all, especially knowing that life goes on and I’m not there to experience it with you all anymore. I am so impressed and humbled by the amazing siblings I have and the people they are becoming. I used to wish I was a better example to them, and although I still wish I could be the oldest sibling that they deserve, I learned that they have taught me more and better exemplified the light to me than I could ever do for them. Please think of me every day, as I will be praying for you all every day. You are always on my mind; you are my pride and my passion.

This is just the beginning. I am wrapped up in the bubble that art is, and very soon my life will be my art. I feel that way now, but I feel this aspect of myself growing. I promise not to forget again who I am or where I come from, and I promise to make you the proudest parents. I promise to do what is right- especially when it is hard. I promise to send a message into the world that is God-honoring, to never take the things I have for granted, to always count my blessings, and to remain humble.

Thank you for believing in me and my dreams, and for walking beside me through it all. My personal belief and conviction as an artist is to feel everything in order to spread the most true, authentic, humble, and down to earth message that I can. I want my life to listen to people, be it through observation, conversation, or experience. This is not an easy path, and although I happily and willingly walk this way, I lament the fact that in part I have to bring you along with me. Thank you for sticking with me through all the hardship that comes with that way of life and allowing me to experience it. To be honest, I don’t think any parents get it right the first time around with their kids- especially with one as headstrong as I am. You guys raised me perfect though, and thanks to that I can walk with confidence every day knowing that I am and will become the most important artist of this generation. I’m going to shake this world to its bones.

All my love